I'm the Lucky one....
Saturday morning I got up at first light to go for my favorite 20 mile bike ride. Normally I would drag my kids along with me, but this morning I wanted to think, so I left them sleeping. We have some wonderful trails and the weather was beautiful and just the perfect temperature for a ride.
I like to use the time in the morning to ponder.
As I flew down the hill leaving my house... the wind was blowing my hair back, and I felt this happy content feeling as I sucked in the crisp autumn air. My mind was drawn back to my thoughts on a prior bike ride and while skiing last Christmas. I remembered hearing the words in my mind,
"Just enjoy it for me. Breathe it in and soak it up."
When my husband first died I remember thinking that he was so lucky not to have to deal with everything here that was stressing my life.
I complained and fretted and wished desperately
that our roles had been reversed...
that I would be enjoying the peace of heaven.